Monday, December 30, 2013

Christmas Reflections

Christmas Reflections

This year was probably the weirdest Christmas "Vacation" for me. I'm a huge Christmas fan, like I start listening to my Christmas pandora station on November 1st. I love Christmas scents and decorations and the idea of Christmas, but it seems like every year Christmas passes by and I don't even notice it. The other members of my family are not huge Christmas fans by any means. I am the one who starts breaking out the Christmas decorations the day after Thanksgiving. We don't have any Christmas traditions that we follow, so it's different every year.

I am a very organized person and I like structure and schedules, although I am not anal about sticking to them because I know that other people act according to the wind. But I do know that once I get my own house and start my own family that we will create our own Christmas traditions; like Christmas movie in pj's on Christmas Eve and a more organized dinner than our buffet style like we have going on now. I have so many plans for the future and I just cannot wait till I can actually go through with them.

Now my 2013 Christmas adventures. This is my first Christmas that I have "come home" from college since I am a freshmen. I thought that it would feel weird and different but it was pretty close to the sameness as every year. My immediate family, as in my mom, dad and brother, and I celebrated on the 23rd and we had steaks for dinner and watched Scrooge on TV, then we opened up presents and had s'mores in the backyard. Nothing too fancy.

Then on Christmas Eve, we drove up to Dallas, where my grandparents live. We didn't even do anything on Christmas Eve. No Christmas devotional or the nativity story or anything. We just unpacked and sat around the house. A wee bit disappointing. On Christmas Day, mom did fix a hearty breakfast, which was very delicious. And the kitchen was busy pretty much the rest of the day. We watched A Christmas Story through out the day. I don't think I've actually sat through the entire movie in one sitting. But I still know pretty much even line. My uncle and aunt and cousin came over, then my great uncle and his wife arrived shortly after. We sat and caught up with each other. Nana called from the kitchen and said that it was ready! We ate and then ate some more. About an hour after that, we exchanged gifts and talked some more. Then about 5pm, everyone left. It was nice to catch up with everyone, but I guess I just had anticipated a lot more of the holiday atmosphere.

Thursday morning, we started packing up everything in order to go up to Oklahoma where my dad's family lives. We ate breakfast with my grandparents at Whataburger and left my dog, Sunny at their house because we figured 22 people is enough without a dog to worry about. We said our goodbyes and headed up north. When we got there, my cousin and his new wife, my aunt and uncle, and my Mamaw and Uncle Tim were there waiting for us. Then, my other cousin and her husband and their four young kids arrived! That was a lot of people for dinner, but it was great because Oklahoma Christmas was what I was looking forward to. It would be the first time that everyone on my dad's side of use family would all be together! It was definitely the "traditional Christmas" that I had hoped for. We played with the little cousins and once they were tired and went home, we stayed up late teaching each other new games like Greedy Gambler and a card game called Spot It which is supposed to be for kids, but  think the adults have a lot more fun with it.

On Friday, the rest of the clan arrived; my aunt, uncle , and their four kids. Now we were all here to enjoy one of the last holidays with our Mamaw. She is not doing her best and we all wanted to spend time with her now while we had the chance, so this was definitely a Christmas to cherish. We only do stocking stuffers for the LeFan Christmas because there is so many of us, so it doesn't take to long for the gift exchange. I really enjoyed the food, family, and fellowship that we had in Oklahoma. Saturday was a traveling day, closer to 10 hours of it. We left around 9:30, we stopped and ate, then picked up Sunny, and continued on. We got home about 8 o'clock that night. I was glad to be back in my own bed.

Reflecting on this Christmas made me realize the importance of fellowship and the "specialness" of the holiday season. It gives us a reason to slow down and gather with our family. We are able to spend time with those who we don't see often. We are able to be with the ones we love and hold close to our hearts. We are also able to join together and celebrate our savior's birth. Family is very important and we should never take our time together for granted. Although this Christmas wasn't the "traditional Christmas" I was anticipating, it was time full of love and laughter that I will remember for the rest of the years to come.

So here's to next year's holiday season, hoping that it will be as great, if not better than this one!

Saturday, December 28, 2013

Progress. Well, Sort Of

Progress, well sort of

Well it has been about two weeks since I have committed to working out everyday. Now I confess that I have struggled lately with the holidays and traveling. On Friday the 20th, I did not work out at all because we went shopping the first half of the day and then I was "kidnapped" by two of my friends that I hadn't seen since we all left for college. Needless to say that catching up with friends was more important that evening. Then on Sunday, the same thing kind of happened. I was supposed to go work out after I had gotten my nails done with my friend, Chandler, but then we got a call from another member of the Fab Five inviting us to one of our ice cream shops to all meet up with our director and her daughter. There went my plan for working out that afternoon and our gym is only open till 5 pm. So I took a"little rest" by doing some leg exercises and a much needed stretch session.

Monday I took action and went to the gym for close to three hours! Because I knew that the next day would be nearly impossible to work out due to the fact that we were traveling that whole day. And then there was Wednesday, Christmas. I planned on doing a few stretches and some floor exercises at my grandparent's but after all the food I inhaled, I fell asleep instead.

Thursday was another travel day where we headed up north to Edmond, OK for our big family Christmas. At one point we had 22 under the same roof. I knew that I would be too busy catching up with cousins and aunts and uncles to find some quiet time and space to workout, which is fine because family time is important. But I have to say that the stairs in that house are killer and I was always running up and down them chasing the little ones. So does that count?

Today is Saturday and I have been in the car all day since 9:30. So that have me time to wind down and blog on my iPad. Unfortunately I couldn't upload the pictures that I wanted to use, other wise this post would have been up sooner. At first I was disappointed in myself for basically stopping my continuous work outs because I was so focused on "trying to get fit" and "never breaking focus", but then I realized that spending time with friends and family is way more important than two hours at the gym, (or in your room with a towel). I'm human, as are most people I know, and as humans, we make mistakes. We have slip ups  and loose focus sometimes. But I cannot let that discourage me from achieving my goals.

I was listening to the radio recently and heard one of the radio announcers talking about diets and counting calories. They mentioned how Carrie Underwood uses an app to count her calories and keep a log of what she has eaten. Then they talked about how she has to keep track of heat she eats because she doesn't get full like most people. She said that she could just eat and eat and not realize how much she has eaten. They said that she recently went to Italy and spent about a week or so there and she had said that she gained about 8 pounds just because she wanted to try everything. And for some strange reason, that gave me some comfort to hear that some one that I look up to slips up as well. Because we are humans, even celebrities.

Even with that hectic week, I have been experimenting and trying to find some of my favorite exercises on Pinterest. The top three are what I like to call my "Carrie Underwood Leg Workout" because she inspired me to become a more healthy version of myself; my "Easy 15" arm workout; and the "Victoria Secret Model: Ab Workout". But seeing how I am picky and I don't want to embarrass myself at the gym, I only do the first half of the leg and I do all but three of the ab workouts.

VS Angel: Abs

Carrie Underwood: Legs

Easy 15: Arms

Thursday, December 19, 2013

Looking Back

I’m on my Christmas break for school and I am completely bored out of my mind. So I decided to take a moment to pause and reflect. Something we all should every now and then. I mostly focused on this blog and how far it has come and how much it has changed since I first started it. At first, I thought I would have nothing to write about, and that I would just comment off of things I had seen on Pinterest. I thought that I didn’t have anything to offer this Internet world and even if I did, it would not matter. Who cares about the opinions of a teenage girl, right? I was kind of afraid to start it because of what others might think. The phrase “Once you post something on the Internet, it can never be removed” began haunting me. What if I accidentally posted something stupid or embarrassing? What if I became a laughing stock? So I decided to keep things simple by basically reposting things I had found on Pinterest or any other website that I had found interesting and write a few of my comments on the subjects.

But as time went on, I began to open up and write more freely about my feelings and opinions. I had also discovered a certain passion for writing. Not necessarily a passion for academic writing or rhetorical analysis, but for a free and creative type of writing. I learned that I especially enjoy writing reviews of anything really.  As you can tell, I have written at least three reviews of some of the live productions that I have viewed and I enjoy writing my opinions about each of them. Maybe if this whole business plan does not work out, I could go back to school and get a journalism or English degree and become some kind of critic or something along those lines.

Pause and reflect. Not something that I do very often, but when I do it sheds a different light on something I would have totally missed otherwise. It opens my eyes to new perspectives on certain subjects and helps me see the whole picture. I hope that I can do this more often in the future to help shape and mold myself into the strong woman I aspire to become someday. I know that I am on the road. I’m not sure which road that is, but I believe that with moments like this one, I will soon discover the answer.

Sunday, December 15, 2013


I am probably the last person to be talking about "getting fit" because I rarely have a continuos workout routine. But last week I had emailed my dad and told him that for Christmas I wanted a "healthier lifestyle." In other words, I wanted us to start working out everyday for the whole month that I am home. I got home Friday afternoon, but they didn't know I was coming early. So we didn't get to go to the gym. Then, Saturday, my dad had to work on his sermon for the morning and we had tickets to go see one of our theatre's Christmas specials, so we were again unable to get to the gym. Honestly, I thought that he had forgotten, but during the intermission of the show he leaned over to me and said, "Hey Court. What time do you want to go to the wellness center?" We agreed on 3pm and that was that.

Now, lately I have been reading a lot about Carrie Underwood, mostly to see what her comments are about the reviews of The Sound of Music: Live, but I kept coming across all of her health and fitness articles. But let's face it, she has one of the best figures. Although that didn't just happen overnight. I read that after Idol, she had decided to get lean and fit because she was concerned about the critical remarks that some people might have about her body. She didn't want them to have anything to pick at. She hired a personal trainer, changed her diet and was on a strict workout/eating routine. She quickly dropped at least 20 pounds and has continued that lifestyle since.

I was basically inspired by her because I believe that she is a great role model and an inspiration. Which kind of sparked this whole "healthy lifestyle" ordeal. Well today was Sunday, and my Dad and I managed to keep our agreement. Today marked the first day of our "training." I have been pinning a lot of different work out routines off of Pinterest, and today I mostly did cardio. That included the elliptical and bicycle machines because I am not fond of running, but I want to try and get back into it.

Anyways, there are a lot of different styles of exercising, and I am no expert at any of them. But I do feel that I can say this: Getting in shape is not an instant thing. You may notice a difference within a month, or you may not even see any results for a year. It all depends on you and how hard you are willing to work. I believe that we all need some motivation in our lives, whether it be from a picture taped to your mirror in the bathroom or a personal training who is always pushing you to go harder. If I had the money, I would definitely choose the latter, but I don't. So that is why I asked my dad to do this with me. I needed someone to hold me accountable and the same goes for him. What I hope results from this is that after I go back to school, we are in the habit of doing this and will not need someone always reminding us to go to the gym.

So this wasn't a post about my work out routine, because I haven't got one yet. This isn't some before and after piece that shows results after three months of hard-core exercise. This was just a post about my fitness life and how I am trying to improve it and become a better version of myself. I also write this to help keep myself accountable so in a month I will try and blog again about my improvements in my fitness and healthy life. Fingers crossed!

Thursday, December 12, 2013

Carrie Underwood: Sound of Music

Along with many others, I watched NBC's The Sound of Music: Live starring Carrie Underwood. I was super pumped and excited to see how she, and the rest of the cast and crew, would pull it off. As you know, I am a theatre geek. So I was thrilled to hear that a major network was producing some live entertainment (besides award shows and football games). I realize that not everyone enjoyed the production as much as I did because most people were focused on and believed that "Carrie trying to replace Julie Andrews", "they are trying to re-do The Sound of Music", and that "Carrie wasn't a good choice for this part." Well let me just drop a few words of wisdom on your head…

First. I do not believe that Carrie Underwood was trying to "replace" Julie Andrews. She personally said that she hears "'You’re not Julie Andrews!' (and replies) I know I’m not — nobody is, and I would never pretend that I was. I know my place, you know?" (Entertainment Weekly). She was there to sing her heart out and try something new. She was given the opportunity to play this part and she took it. She worked just as hard as anyone else would have if they were given that part. We know that Carrie is not an actress, but she went out there and performed to the best of her ability. She was not afraid of failure. If you were not a gifted actor/ actress, would you have the guts to perform live, in front of over 18 million viewers? Well, she did! And even though her acting ability was not the strongest, her love for the children was real. Her tears in the Abbey scene were real. And I truly believe that her heart was in it and she felt the character of Maria come alive in her. She probably was not the perfect pick for many viewers, but who better than Carrie Underwood to play a compassionate and godly woman, with a passion for song, who loves unconditionally?

When asked about her acting she responded,
"Well, I should first say that I will never take great performances in acting for granted again. I feel like we are so spoiled and we go to the movie theater and we just see these incredible performances or we go to a Broadway show and we see these incredible performances and we just expect them to be wonderful. I will never take that for granted again, because it’s hard. And I’m so glad I’ve realized that, not that I ever thought it was easy, but you know, it’s definitely a challenge." (Entertainment Weekly)

I believe that she did have some great moments in this production. We need to take a step back and instead of criticizing her for the thing she did "badly", we should praise her for the amazing things that she did accomplish. For example, she sang for three hours straight and didn't even crack (obviously she has some practice at that with concerts and other live performances). But, not only that but she sang in a completely different style than what she is used to. Also, she is completely new at this whole acting thing, but she was willing and she was dedicated to her part. The whole show rode on her shoulders and she did not let the pressure get to her! Did you know that they prepared for this whole production in the course of two months!? Could you do that? Kudos to Carrie for taking on this responsibility. 

Second. They definitely are not trying to remake the movie! I'm pretty sure they are using the stage script. I have read so many reviews about how "it wasn't like the movie at all!" Well of course not! It's based on the stage version! No one wants to remake anything. They are simply paying tribute to the Von Trapp's and the original Sound of Music. This live production is a token of appreciation. People need to take a chill pill! And even if they were "remaking" it, who cares? They do it all the time. Footloose? The Parent Trap? King Kong? Hair Spray!? 

NBC is trying to show appreciation for a classic. Is that so bad? When Broadway produces "Revival shows" do people get their panties in a wad? I do not think so. In my time acting and performing, my director always told us to "never to try and reproduce what you did yesterday, because then it isn't real. Live in the moment…" I believe that is what the cast of The Sound of Music: Live was doing. They are not trying to reproduce anything. They are trying to bring the hills to life again with music by paying respect and honoring those who have done so in the past.

Third. Let us all take a moment and appreciate what live entertainment is. We are so spoiled when it comes to television and movies because there are no mistakes in that area. We are expecting perfection every time because that is what we have been conditioned with. But when it comes to live theatre, anything can happen! Sets can fall apart, people can break their ankle in the middle of a dance number, actors can forget their lines! It happens. The entertainment business got it's start where? Live theatre. We would be no where without people who were willing to risk everything and perform in front of live audiences. Live audiences where you can hear their reactions. Their laughs at jokes, or even mistakes. Their sobs or gasps at suspenseful moments. And especially their silence. Live theatre is something that not everyone has an appreciation for and that is sad. I believe that NBC and others are doing their part in trying to bring us back to the basics. And I thank them for it, too. 

A beautiful shot from the production.
So I conclude with this extremely long, but very passionate post with this. A "thank-you" to Carrie Underwood and the rest of the amazing cast and crew of The Sound of Music: Live. A "kudos" to NBC for doing something out of the norm. And a very big *hug* of appreciation to those who took the time to read this. Please try and congratulate instead of criticize. 

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

My Vow to You

During my English 111 final essay, I had to write about my writing process and whether or not I feel like I have improved. I mentioned that I had started a blog since beginning the class and then it dawned on me. My essay grades began improving after I started the blog! This free writing and blogging had unleashed my creative juices and allowed me to add my personal touches to my essays to make them more relatable and personable. Even if it was a slight grade improvement, but an improvement none the less, I accredited it to Hello, My Name is Girl!!

So I urge you, fellow readers, (Whether the audience numbers are great or small), to do your own creative and free writing. It really helps relieve some stress or just jumbled up thoughts in my brain and helps me release some tension building up. You can either write poetry, short stories, songs, or even a blog! It doesn't matter what you do, just try it for a week. Take some time to sit down and just release whatever is going through your mind at that moment and write!

Now here's what I'll ask of you and I will give you something in return. 
I ask that you, dear reader, please give me some feed back. Comment a smiley face or something. Just please let me know what you think or what your opinion is of whatever I have written about. And I vow to write more frequently and consistently.

Also, if you happen to start a blog, email me your link and I will gladly read it! Because I enjoy reading blogs and I know how much it can affect your day with a positive comment on your post.

So please, take the time to consider what I have said and I hope to hear from y'all soon. (That's right, I'm from Texas).

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Tuesday, December 10, 2013

First Semester

Wow. It just does not even seem real. Yesterday I was packing up for the big move to Abilene, and today I'm packing to go back to Fredericksburg for a month. I'm not sure which to call home anymore. When I'm in my dorm, I think about my nice warm room back at my house. But sometimes when I'm in Fredericksburg, I just can't wait to get back to school. I can't imagine how a month "back home" is going to be like. Of course, we are not just staying in Fredericksburg. We are going up to Garland for Christmas to visit my grandparents and an aunt and uncle and a cousin. Then we are continuing up north to Edmond, OK to visit my other grandmother and the entire Mac LeFan family! All of my dad' s brothers and his sister and all of their families and their kids and even their kids' kids!! At least 20 people under one roof! And I'm soooo excited.

Now back to this week, today I took two of my finals. Bright and early this morning I wrote an essay for my English final and then later I listened to my science professor give his "farewell speech". He really does mean well, it's just his voice and the subject matter is so boring I just think "maybe if I bang my head hard enough on the table, I'll die…" every time I walk into that classroom. Thankfully, he does not believe in tests so we did NOT have a final! Hallelujah!! Tomorrow, I have the day off of school seeing as I do not have any finals. But I do have to go to work. (Mehh!) It's not that it's a hard job, I basically babysit, but it really is very unorganized and I'm the one who is sent to different schools when a regal care counselor is sick or gone and fill in. I am thrown into new situations everyday! No one respects me and I usually have no idea what is going on, but hey, that's most of the time!

Anyway, Thursday I have Cornerstone at 8am where the final is a podcast and a six word memoir. Both of which I have done!! Except I'm a little worried about the final podcast because it was supposed to be 5 mins, but mine is only 4:36, and thinking about it now, I probably should have made it a little longer. But I ain't going to worry about it now, it's already submitted. Besides, I'm just hoping for an A in this class, not a 100. I think I'll be good. Then I have a Bible final which is a 50 question, multiple choice exam. But I'm not too worried because I have a 107 in that class now and he basically told us that the questions are coming straight off of previous tests and quizzes, which I have aced! Then I have an optional Business exam, but I still have an A in that class as well so I'm going to skip it and go to work (Yay…) instead so I can go home early.

Looking back now, I have realized how blessed and extremely lucky I was this semester. I was eased into this whole college process. I didn't have any terrible classes, Science was the closest but it was never hard or stressful, just boring. I had amazing professors! And I never once felt alone or scared about anything. I'm so thankful for this semester and for the friends I'm making. I'm thankful for the little communities I have found on campus. I am extremely grateful for my two besties on campus, Brittney and Michaela (Shout out). I have no idea what I would have done without them! Again, I am extremely thankful for this school and the people who have worked so hard to get me here (teachers, counselors, PARENTS). And of course, where would I be without my faith. Now I'll admit, I haven't hit rock bottom or have been in many of my personal dark crevices, and I'm no where near to what I would want my relationship with God to be, but I know that without Him and His grace, love, and mercy, I would not be where I am today.

So basically: I'm done with semester one. Grateful, thankful, never hateful. Bring it on, Life! Hit me with your best shot!!

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Why Elle Is a Role Model

Probably the most iconic "chick flick" movie known to mankind is Robert Luketic's Legally Blonde. I personally like Legally Blonde: The Musical the best, only because I am a theatre geek. Of course none of these Elle legends would even exist with Amanda Brown's novel. Although I have heard that it is nothing like the movie or musical. Elle doesn't have an "ahh-ha" moment and she basically mopes about Warner the whole book. The story of a college girl and her miniature dog who is obsessed with pink and Warner Huntington III who follows her guy to Harvard initially to win him back, but does something even more incredible. Elle Woods is not only the epitome of "girlie", but she goes on a journey of self discovery to figure out that you can do and achieve anything you put your mind to.

A couple of reasons why I love Elle. One. She is afraid of nothing. Her confidence is glowing and contagious. When she realizes that she has to follow Warner to an ivy league school, she doesn't wonder if she'll get in. In fact, it's quite the opposite. She is determined to be accepted, even when her advisors and own parents frown upon Harvard.

Two. She doesn't follow the stereotype. She started off as the "typical blonde", but she was determined to get what she wanted, so she studied hard to get into Harvard. While there, Elle actually showed that she was intelligent and that she could become the smartest one in her graduating class. She ended up graduating as valedictorian of her class.

Three. She is a hard worker. Getting into Harvard was no picnic either. She worked her butt off! And then, in order to prove to everyone that she isn't a dumb blonde, she and Emmet studied and worked hard to raise her grades and get the coveted internship with Callahan.

Four. She is true to herself. "Being true to yourself never goes out of style." Elle earned the coveted Valedictorian spot, not by conforming to the status quo, but by remain and embracing who she truly was. A girl with a passion for helping others. She used that passion to drive her to learn more about the law and to make the top grades.

Five. She is the greater person. When Vivian tricked her into thinking the party was a costume party, Elle totally played it off cool. She wasn't completely embarrassed and humiliated. She did turn around and run home. She embraced the situation and made it work out to her advantage. She never backstabbed Vivian or Warner, she never played dirty. She was always the fair and honest person and look where that got her.

And six. Of course, we cannot forget her great sense of class and style!

So thanks, Elle, for teaching us how to continue to be classy and confident in this world.


Thursday, November 28, 2013

Be Thankful

In the spirit of Thanksgiving, I'd like to take a moment to pause and reflect over my first semester of college. I have so many things that I could be thankful for but I would never be able to list them all. Coming to college, I was introduced to a number of different lifestyles. I love to hear of my fellow students' background stories and hear of where they come from. I believe that is very important to know where you friends are from so you can help them to where they are going.

A few things that come immediately to mind when I think of what I am thankful for are:

1. I am thankful for Abilene Christian University. This school has given me so many wonderful opportunities. It has given me scholarships that allowed me to come here. It has given me chances to meet wonderful new friends. I have been able to broaden my education and try out my different talents. College in general is a great thing, but ACU is probably the best school, (or at least for me!).

2. I am thankful for my family. Immediate and distant. I'm actually closer to some of my like second and third cousins than I am my first cousins. I basically have two other homes in Abilene because of them, which I am very thankful for. I can "cure" my homesickness with one text, "Can I come over and do laundry this afternoon?" Haha, and of course I am thankful for my parents and grandparents, and I guess my brother too.

3. I am thankful for my friends, new and old. One of my biggest fears of college was not being able to make friends in college, but fortunately I have made many new friends. I am thankful for my Fab Five because I know I can always call and talk to them for hours if I ever need too. I'm also thankful for my new friends that I am making. I am thankful that I am making new friendships that will last for years to come.

4. I am thankful for my professors. Each one of my professors are very special to me. They may not be my favorite teacher, or the easiest class, but they all have pushed me to do my best and succeed.

5. I am thankful for my mentors. Whether they are past teachers/directors or old friends, it's nice to know that I have other people who believe in me other than my parents. I know I can always call them with any questions and they will always have my back! They have pushed me to become who I am today.

6. Lastly, I am thankful for theatre. I recently attended ACU's production of Next to Normal and let me just say "WOW!" One of the most powerful shows I have ever seen. I am so thankful for the telling of stories. Theatre is just another way of education, but one a really personal level. I love being transported to another world and following the lives' of each of the characters. I am thankful for people who share the same love that I do for this form of art.

These are just a few things on a very long list that I am not fully aware of. I know I take many things for granted and I'm working on acknowledging my blessings.

So the thing that I am most thankful for is the saving grace of my Lord and Savior. I definitely do not deserve the forgiveness that He has blessed me with.

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

What Purpose?

It seems like everywhere I turn, I am bombarded with the question "What is your purpose?" In one of my classes, we are discussing our calling or our God given "Divine Appointment." Why am I here, what is my purpose?

I've been watching Lost this semester, for the first time! It's really addicting and very confusing. I'm not even going to attempt to explain, you'll just have to watch it for yourself. But while binge watching, I've noticed a theme that has been weaving through out the series. Each character has been wrestling with their own reason for being on the island. "Why am I here, what is my purpose?" The characters struggle with the idea of the plane crashing as "their destiny," "they were supposed to crash there". "So-and-so was supposed to die", that was their purpose.

This semester, I personally was struggling with my major. Business Management? Not the most fun or excited major. And I wasn't completely confident in my choice. I think I chose it because my mom was pushing it and because "Plan A" did not work out for me. So I decided to take a "Discovery" class that tried to help me find my calling. Unfortunately I didn't get much out of it expect for a personality test that way very accurate. Like scary accurate. And a skills test that showed me I wanted to work with people but was not a people person. So basically it told me that I could either be a social worker, a business major, or broadcast journalist. I decided to stick with business and added theatre as a minor. But the whole class was focused around my calling and purpose.

And another example of purpose, my dad gave me a little book for graduation in June called The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren. It's a short, little 100 paged book that tries to help answer the question that most people struggle with, "What is my purpose in life?" And it goes on to answer this with 5 spiritual answers:

You were planned for God's pleasure. 
You were formed for a family.
You were created to become Christ-like.
You were shaped for serving God.
You were made for a mission.

These are probably the most accurate answers that anyone can get. If we can try and fulfill those five points, we probably would be satisfied with our lives. If we could stop being selfish and try to make our lives about ourselves and focus on the good we could do for others and for God, we wouldn't have to try and figure out why we were here. We would feel satisfied with ourselves because of the work we were doing for God. Let's all try and aim for that kind of life, shall we?

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

I'm so ashamed… My Secret Love

Growing up in a small town, we Fredericksburgians were some what deprived of things, such as a shopping mall, a movie theatre (one was open for a short amount of time, and rumors are that it's re-opening), a selection of restaurants, and pretty much any thing fun to do.

If we wanted to go school clothes shopping, we would have to drive at least an hour to go to San Antonio for some decent clothes. If we wanted to see a new movie, we would have to drive to Kerrville to go to their movie theatre. We only had 5 "fast food" restaurants; including McDonald's (which was okay), Sonic (the place to be after school), Churches Chicken (I don't recommend it), Dairy Queen (No one wanted their food), and Subway (actually we had 3 Subways, why? No one knows!)

So in our neighboring town, Kerrville, we were offered a lot more options and usually our go to fast food chain was Taco Bell. I liked Taco Bell, that was my favorite "mexican" fast food place. I always got two soft tacos and maybe an order of nachos. I know what you're thinking, "Those aren't nachos, those are chips with fake cheese sauce!" Friends, fake cheese sauce is way better to me than actual cheese!

Anyway, I was really excited to move to Abilene when I realized that I would have more than two "fast food" options! Being the poor, broke college student that I am, I don't go for healthy, I go for cheap! Obviously Taco Bell was the best option. Not only that, but they offer a student discount!! How cool is that? So My friends and I would always choose Taco Bell. And that's where my love for the cheap "mexican" food began to bloom. No matter what, I'm always down for Taco Bell. I know that it's definitely not the best thing for you, but how can I resist?

So that's my secret and shameful love. Whenever you ask me what I'm hungry, you'll know it's TACO BELL.

We even were Taco Bell Hot Sauce Packets for a Halloween party. And guess who won best group costume? That's right, Taco Bell did!!

Sunday, November 10, 2013

My Mary Kay Challenge

I used to not be the one that obsessed over beauty products, or even gave a flip about make-up. But once high school came around, I figured, "Hey, I should try this make-up thing." And what do you know? I didn't look like I rolled out of bed two minutes ago. So I bought some Walmart make-up. But with make-up also came stupid acne. High school is horrible as it is. But add acne on top of that, it was pretty much the end of the world. 

As I journeyed through the walls of my school, I realized that I wasn't the only one who struggled with acne. Heck, mine was usually pretty subdued compared to some of the other students. So I stopped obsessing over it and kinda forgot about acne. I had this whole wonderful belief that as soon as I graduated, everything would be all "sunshine and daisies" and acne would be gone forever. I mean that's what happens in movies, right? Wrong! It actually got worse. Probably because of the stress of changing my whole entire life!

I finally called a dermatologist (actually my mom did, because I didn't want too) and set up an appointment because I was sick and tired of flare ups! But no sooner than I visited the doc, my cousin asked me to do a seven day challenge. Casee is an amazing Mary Kay Sales Director and she asked me to take her Clear Proof Seven Day Challenge. It's just seven days, so I figured "Why not? If it works, great. If not, that's what a dermatologist is for." So I accepted the challenge.

So the next day, I got up and wash my face with Clear Proof. I created a little ritual when I got up:

Wash my face with the cleansing gel and rinse. Then brush my teeth and let my skin dry some. Then used the toner. Let they dry while a I got dressed. Then put on the acne treatment gel and then the moisturizer.

Let me tell you that I was in love with this product by day 4! I could already see results and so could my close friends. I was telling them about how I was a little skeptical about this "one week challenge". How could something work that fast? But it definitely did! My face was less red and there were no more ugly red bumps.

Here's a "Before and After" just after seven days!

Before Seven Days of Clear Proof
After Seven Days of Clear Proof

With clearer skin, I feel a lot more confident. So thank's Casee! And thanks Mary Kay ;)

So if you wanna check out Casee's website and maybe sell this and other amazing products, I recommend that you go ahead and give it a try!

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Chick Flick Marathon

Sometimes you just gotta have a girls weekend. So break out the chips, chocolate, and drinks. Grab all the Seventeen, Vogue, Elle, and Glamour. Rounds up the troops, and snatch up your favorite chick flicks for the ultimate Girls Getaway. I know that I always loved our Fab Five sleepovers, which were usually at Chan's house. We would eat entire bags of chocolate, Puppy Chow, and Hot Cheetos in one night while reading and laughing over magazines while our favorite movie was playing in the background. We would plan to stay up all night, but somehow sleep got the best of us and we would always pass out around 3 or 4. Party Animals! I know!


Here is a list of some of my favorite chick flicks that we always we watch together or that I just love to watch while at home: (in no particular order)

1. Pitch Perfect. Probably my favorite movie ever! It's great to sing and laugh along to and is always a perfect back up for when you just can't decide what to watch. It's also great to wake up the girls because you can't resist singing along.

2. Bridesmaids. A movie that might just describe your group of friends perfectly, as it does ours. Although some characters are a bit exaggerated, we can easily relate to Annie, Lillian, and Helen's triangle of "Best Friends." It is definitely one that makes your abs hurt from laughing and you can pretty much quote the entire movie.

3. 13 Going on 30. A perfect movie that describes how you feel when you want to "grow up" but you can't let go of your past. It's also a very cute love story.

4. Princess Diaries. Because every girl secretly wishes their grandmother would come a tell them that they are a princess.

5. Steel Magnolias. For when you want a good tear jerker. Mother-daughter relationships and the strength of friendships. The Fab Five really wanted to do this for a One Act.

6. Devil Wears Prada. High Fashion. Horrible Bosses. New York City!

7. What a Girl Wants. Before Amanda went cray cray.

8. Sweet Home, Alabama. 

9. MEAN GIRLS. Because we live in that world.
     And my personal favorite…

10. Legally Blonde. I can pretty much quote it verbatim. A very girl-power movie about following your dreams, and never giving up! (even though Elle follows a guy, she discovers her passion for justice and that's what ultimately drives her to success. Not the jerk that she thought she was in love with.)

What did I miss? Let me know! 

Friday, November 1, 2013

Everybody's Watching You

Have you ever wondered what other people thought of you? Do you ever feel as if someone was watching your every move? Or people are talking about you?

I know for a fact that people watch me. People judge me. And people talk about me. Whether it's good or bad or indifferent does not matter to me. Or at least it shouldn't. While in UIL Prose/Poetry, I was taught that as soon as I walked into the speaking room I was being judge. The judge was taking notes on each speaker and how professional they were when they weren't speaking. In theatre, I heard over and over again, "Somebody will always be watching you." Basic theatre lesson: Even if you are not the main focus on stage, remain in character because someone is watching you. Someone is waiting to see if you make a mistake or drop your character. Always remain in character. But that is true in everyday life. People are judging everyone, everywhere.

Everybody is watching you. Your friends, your colleagues, the little girls at church. People will look to you. You are someone's role model. So don't do anything stupid or something you'll regret later. Very cliché, I know. But as the lyric from If/Then says, "It's cliché, which means it's true."

Someone is reading this. Someone is judging this or forming their opinion about me. And I, or anyone else, cannot stop that. But I can control what is being judged. I can choose whether it is my positive outlook being judged or if it's my bad attitude. I control what I put out there for people to see, so why not make it positive?

A little food for thought.

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Let Your Hair Down

Growing up, I watched was and fascinated with Disney princess movies. One thing that they gave me was an unrealistic expectation of my hair. Every princess had a flawless complexion and gorgeous locks. But let's be real. Those are cartoons and no one can have flowing hair like those princesses. Let's take a look at some of those extremely unrealistic expectations:

Snow White: She runs through the triply forrest, with all those creepy trees "attacking" her. She trips and stumbles and eventually falls in sobs. She just lays on the ground, crying, and when she looks up is her hair a mess and tangled with leaves and twigs? Of course not! It looks just as good when she gets married as it does then! She never even runs her fingers through her hair.

Cinderella: She wakes up to little birdies singing in her ear and she gets up with horrible bed head. And the birds and mice are all screaming because it is terrifying! Ehh... Wrong. Her hair is perfect. She gets out of bed, "brushes" her hair like twice and takes a shower. Then she comes out, with her hair still looking beautiful, and ties her hair up with a ribbon. Now have you ever tried tying your hair with a ribbon? It's impossible! When I attempt to tie my hair I need a hair tie, bobby pins, lots of hairspray, and the ribbon. And even after all of that it still wont stay. When Cindy does it, it stays perfectly while she cleans and cries.

Pocahontas: A Native American girl, who most definitely does not own a hair brush, runs around the woods, painting with the colors of the wind along side her humming bird and raccoon friends. And her hair is never knotted or tangled. 'Nuff said. And speaking of tangled...

Rapunzel: Her hair is what, twenty plus feet long? She drags her hair behind her the entire movie. She swings from limbs and hides in it. The movie is called Tangled! And she never once stops and untangles it?

Pretty much all the princesses have flawless locks, but of course they are characters in a cartoon. But there are some major hair icons out there who are not two-dimensional. Here are some of my hair idols.

Connie Britton- gorgeous red hair. I've always wanted red hair, but alas my hair does not like to dyed and washes out within two weeks... But Connie definitely rocks her locks!


Lana Parilla: She is obviously my woman crush. She even inspired my drastic hair cut my junior year of high school. But she owns the short cut!

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And I absolutely love anything vintage and I love Turner Classic Movies. That is where I was introduced to Esther Williams who is my other hair icon. Practically anyone from that era is my hair icon just because I love all of their hair styles. But Esther's hair is always perfect, even after a swim!

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Gotta love hair! But sometimes I wanna pull a Britney Spears and just shave my head and wear wigs the rest of my life. :) 

Monday, October 28, 2013

ACU's Les Misérables Review

On Sunday, October 20th, I had the pleasure of attending Abilene Christian University Theatre Department's production of Les Misérables. I was blown away. Jean Val Jean's voice was amazing; nothing short of perfect. He had a very impressive tenor voice, but was still able to hit those low notes with such power and passion.
The overall cast was astounding; the 50 plus cast members made up a powerful ensemble to help tell this story of struggle and grace. There were a few moments that I could not understand the lyrics, but it didn't help that their mics were fading in and out throughout the entire show. Fantine had a strong voice, but I felt that she could have been more powerful during "I Dreamed a Dream". She basically just sat down through the song. I feel that if she was so overcome with emotion, she would be moving a lot more, trying to figure out what to do with her life and how she will provide for Cosette now. At least look up! But that's just my opinion. She did a great job, though and you could understand her very well. Gavrache was so adorable and very enthusiastic, but unfortunately I could barley understand what he was saying. I know that he was probably under the age of ten and you could tell that they worked a lot on the accent, but I think they should have focused on articulation and punctuation. He really did a great job and was the epitome of street rat! He was in everyone's business and weaved his way through the crowds, getting in their way.

I have to say that my favorite character was Éponine. She had a powerful and moving voice. She has always been my favorite character. She's a strong character who gave up her life for the one she loved, even though she knew  he would never love her back. The girl who played Éponine blew me away. You could feel her pain in her songs. She was always in the moment.

The set and lighting was beautiful, the costumes were good, and the blocking was fluid. Everything flowed so beautifully. The cast and crew did a fantastic job and they should be extremely proud of their production. Congrats to all of them!

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

This Room is for Two?

Being a college student (which is still weird, but exciting to say), I have to deal with the normalities of college life. Adjusting to class schedule. Community bathrooms, which are not as bad as everyone thinks. Cafeteria food, but thankfully our "World Famous Bean" is pretty good... And roommates. 

I was pretty excited and nervous about rooming with someone I didn't know. It was like a guaranteed friend, right? In my case, NO. It's not that we hate each other or that we just don't  get along, we don't even talk! It's still awkward walking into my own living quarters to see this other person sitting on the opposite bed. Our conversations are very shallow and surface level; "Hi, how was your day?" "Good, what about yours?" "Good." That's pretty much the extent of our communication, unless it's about an assignment for a class. Pretty exciting, isn't it?!

I had all of these plans that we would stay up late talking about our lives and feeling that we've known each other for ages. I imagined that we would both wander around campus together, two little fishies trying to make it through the first week of college. I thought we would get up together and go eat breakfast and talk until we had to part ways and go to our 8am classes. I know that it might be foolish to think that my college best friend would be delivered through going pot-luck, and I told myself that. But deep in the back of my mind, I believed that would happen.

Don't get me wrong, I like my roommate. She's really nice and we both are very respectful of each other's spaces, but I just wish we had a deeper relationship. The good thing is that we both try and go to bed early, which I love, because I need my beauty sleep! And since we aren't always talking, I am able to do my homework in my room. Which is good, because I am pretty much acing all of my classes. So there have been some good things that have come out of this awkward situation. I am truly thankful that we do not hate each other or talk behind each others back because I have heard so many girls trash talk their roomies and complain about hating them. I think that is so awful! I'd rather be in my room than have any of those relationships.

I will continue through this next semester and learn from this first year. I will try and change the things I don't like and be grateful for the things I do like. Maybe I'll meet my next roommate in one of my classes or perhaps I've already met her! No matter what may come, I will be in charge of the outcome. I will not just sit and complain without trying to do something about it! We all are in control of our lives, so do something about it.

Thursday, October 17, 2013

Surviving the Rainy Days

This past week has been extremely dreary. I love the incoming cold weather, I just wish it wasn't accompanied by rain. But it's not really rain as it is just cold wetness over campus and the rest of the city. If it was a little warmer and wet, that'd be fine. If it was cold and dry, that'd be even better. But no, it has to be cold and wet at the same time! But I guess that's okay because Texas needs the moisture and  the coldness just mean that fall is here.

There are so many things that I want to do on a rainy day! And none of them include going to an 8am class. That's the struggle of a college student. Here are some ways to survive the rainy days:

1. Put on your cute rain boots and have your umbrella handy. Every girl loves to compare rain boots. we can't help but squeal, "Oh! Those are soooo cute, where did you get them!" because we can never have enough.

2. Bundle up! Even though it might not be freezing outside, the rain just seems to make the temperature feel like it's below zero. Plus if you get your outer layer wet, you can always shed it and let it dry until you venture out again.

3. Grab your favorite Starbucks drink, or whatever you prefer. Although I love me some Starbucks, I will forever be a hot chocolate fan! I always have a mug on hand during the cold, rainy weather. And it keeps me feeling warm.

4. I always want to snuggle up in a huge blanket and read a book. Outside. I don't really know why, but I do. So I would grab a book, preferably one of the Harry Potter classics or one that I was reading for class, and I would grab my favorite fluffy purple blanket and pillow pet and head outside to our front porch. I would lie down on our front porch swing and get cozy and all snuggled up. I would listen to the rain while reading and swinging on the porch. Of course, you don't have to go outside, but you should find a good book and get comfy!

5. Movies. Movies are always a good idea. Get a few of your friends together and have a mini-movie marathon. I've really enjoyed watching movies on dreary days because they kind of take you out of the rainy world and take you to the world of movies. Chick flicks are a good ideas; a few rom-coms and maybe add a classic like The Breakfast Club. Just don't forget the popcorn and chocolate!

6. And if you are really lucky and have the time... Sleep! Sleeping in on those days where it's almost impossible to get out of bed is one of the best feelings. Especially when you've been lacking in that area.

These are just a few of the many great ways to survive a rainy day. Of course when it's warmer, its always fun to run and "play" in the rain, just like in the good ole days!

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Strong Women, Inspiring Girls: Ep 2

Malala Yousafzai is known as the young girl from Pakistan who was shot point blank by a Taliban gunman, all because she believes in education for all and women's rights (a year ago this week). It is only by God that she survived. She is a very wise and well spoken young women. She is the youngest person ever to be nominated for the Nobel Peace Prize (2013).

When asked where her love and passion of education come from, she replied "We are human beings...We don't learn the importance of anything until it's snatched from our hands..." She said that the moment when she was stopped from going to school she realized how important education was and that it was power for women. She believes that the Taliban is afraid of educated women because they will become more powerful. When she learned that the Taliban was after her, she wasn't afraid for her own life, but for the life of her father. What a selfless thing to think! You just have to listen to her remarkable response when Jon Stewart asked her what she thought after she learned about the threat to her life. She said at first she thought she would try and fight back by hitting them with her shoe, but then she said very wisely, "If I hit them and try to fight back, then there is no difference between me and the gunman. I would be just as cruel as the Taliban. So I would tell him how important education is and why we need it. I would tell him how much I wanted his children to be educated. Then I would say 'That's what I wanted to tell you, now do what you want to me." (paraphrase, and no where near as powerful as hearing her say it).

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After she was attacked, Malala remained in critical condition. But God has a purpose for her, so she pulled through. When she had recovered, she spoke out and stood up for the issue that got her shot. She stood up and said "I am Malala." She was not afraid to tell the Taliban that she was back and she was ready to continue her fight.

Being as blessed as we are, Americans often take education and freedom for granted. We gripe and complain about going to school, (most of us for free!), and we skip classes and fall asleep during lectures. We are so spoiled when it comes to school. We have no idea what it is like for people across the world, who beg to go to school and become educated. Like Malala said, "We don't learn the importance of anything until it is snatched from our hands."

It is time for us to stand up for what we believe in. We need to join in the fight. Whatever it might be, we need to be proactive and not just wait around for someone else to do your job. Stand up and say "I am Malala".


Monday, October 14, 2013

Happy Fall!

Fall is probably my favorite season for a lot of reasons. I love the weather! It's chilly enough for sweaters, but you don't turn into a popsicle every time you walk out the door. I love the cool crisp air that blows and rustles through the leaves, causing one or two of them to break off and slowly drift to the ground. I like pumpkins and hay bales, cinnamon and vanilla. I like to decorate for fall. Scarecrows and fall wreaths. I love the fall garlands on the mantle above the fire place.

But my absolute favorite parts of fall are the holidays! Halloween and Thanksgiving.
Halloween is fun because of all the anticipation of that one night where you could dress up and run around with your friends. Eat candy all night while watching scary movies. I love to hear all the kids running and laughing throughout the neighborhoods, without a care in the world.

Then there's Thanksgiving.
Family. Football. And Food. I absolutely love Thanksgiving. I love the smells of Thanksgiving. The turkey that's been cooking for what seems like days, the pumpkin and pecan pies. Mashed potatoes, sweet potatoes. Green beans, corn, stuffing and dressing, gravy. And my personal favorite, homemade rolls! I love Thanksgiving because it is a time of family. We all gather around the fireplace, squish on couches and chairs, lie on the floor. We catch up with one another, sharing new stories as well as the old ones. Mostly the old stories, but with a new twist; something that has been added on since last years telling. Then the moment we've all been waiting for, Nana announces from the kitchen, "Okay everything's ready, let's eat!" And we all go into the crowded kitchen. We huddle around the table, grabbing hands and my dad offers to pray. We are so blessed to be living where we are, and we take it for granted daily. Sure there are some things that we are not happy with, but we are safe and we are together. We are healthy and we are fortunate. We are free to celebrate and pray and worship. We are so blessed.

This coming fall, I am going to enjoy the weather and the fellowship. But I am also going to strive to always be grateful and thank God that I am blessed.

Friday, October 11, 2013

Hold On To Your "Glee"

I just watched the latest Glee episode, and I was bawling the entire time. For those of you who don't know, Cory Monteith, who played Finn Hudson, passed away this summer. He was one of the stars of the show and, of course, the teen heartthrob of Glee. Unfortunately, he had a drug problem and it got the better of him. But we shouldn't let that one mistake define who he was. In the show, they had to address the elephant in the room, "Where was Finn?" (WARNING SOME SPOILERS)  They began the episode with "Seasons of Love" from the musical, Rent.  They never answer how Finn had died, but his step-brother, Kurt, said it best, "Everyone wants to talk about how he died too, but who cares? One moment in his whole life- I care more about how he lived."

That is how we should remember everyone who has gone on before us. We should not spend all of our time grieving over the way someone has died. Instead we should be celebrating the life that they had. The memories that they had left behind. We need to hold onto our glee, because that's all we have. Throughout this episode, I noticed a phrase that kept appearing. "I should have..." I should have hugged him more. I should have told him that he was a good person. I should have thanked him. I should have. I wish I had. Why didn't I?

These thoughts always occur after a loved one has passed. So why haven't we learned to hug more, cherish the moment, and say what's really on our mind? We think we think we have all the time in the world, but we are not even promised tomorrow. Principal Sue was talking with Santana when she said that she thought that they [Finn and herself] would be teaching together for 30 years. She was imaging herself always teasing and tormenting him in the future, but now, "it's just so pointless." There is no tomorrow for Finn.

I had a really hard time watching this episode because I knew that all of those tears are real. Those are real people grieving the real death of a real friend. The character of Finn was a symbol for me. He symbolized all of my One Act friends. The glee club is One Act to me. Like the glee club, we are all a family, we lean on each other for support. I'm excited to see them just as much as I am my family (sometimes even more excited). Our best director in the world, Mrs. Mae, always reminds us to "Live in the Present", remember this moment. Don't get too caught up in the future that you forget to treasure this moment, right here, right now. And she couldn't be more right. Finn could have been any one of my friends. And although we wouldn't come together and sing our hearts out in memorial, I believe that we would all join together and sit on that stage that we called our home and we would cry together. We would be there for each other.

I am so thankful that nothing has happened to our family, but there is no promise that tragedy won't strike. So I'm going to learn from Glee. I don't want to end up saying "I should have". I want to say "I'm glad I did." I'm going to hold on to my memories of One Act and keep close to my glee.

My One Act Family. My Glee

Thursday, October 10, 2013

On One Strange Hallows' Eve...

It's almost scarves and sweaters time! And I cannot wait. Pumpkin flavored everything has begun to emerge, while cinnamon scented pine cones line the shelves of Walmart. Right next to the never-to-early Christmas isle. But that is a few holidays away.

Fall is one of my favorite times of the year because:
     1. I have a lot of friends and family birthdays that month.
     2. The scent of fall is amazing!
     3. The colors of fall, although in Texas, it's mostly brown. But I can still look at pictures and wish with all my heart that those were pictures of Texas. Annnd finally...
     4. Halloween! I'm not quiet sure why I love Halloween. The free-candy thing probably has something to do with it, but I think it's the memories of dressing up as a kid and having the "freedom" of roaming the streets late at night (9pm, oh yah, I'm a rebel) doing whatever our little hearts desired.

One of my favorite stories to reminisce about is the time I wore my Cinderella dress to church on Halloween. I loved that Cinderella dress. I'm told that I wore it for about two months after Halloween and my parents had to take it off of me while I slept just to wash it! But that's not my favorite part. It was a Wednesday night, and my family and I were at church. Apparently there was some sort of college group that was there that night to perform some skits, maybe on Halloween safety or something like that. Well I was just in awe of those "big kids" and wanted to be just like them. So I decided to go ahead on jump on stage with them, but that's not the worst part... What gets more attention than a little Cinderella interrupting some Halloween skits?

A little Cinderella who decides to lift her dress up and show the world her princess undies while interrupting Halloween skits.

That's right. I did it! And it seems I had no shame on the stage, because I stayed up there as long as I could. Of course, I couldn't have the spotlight to myself, so my little brother (who was dress as a pumpkin) had to stumble up on the stage as well. Fortunately for my mother, he was in a onesie and couldn't join in the fun. I have no idea how long I was up there revealing myself to the world. But as soon as some one said, "Aren't those the preacher's kids up there?", we were immediately snatched off the stage and taken to the back. Oh, did I forget to mention? My dad is the preacher of the church where this incident occurred. And he is actually still preaching there, so I guess it wasn't that bad!

So basically, I flashed an entire church congregation once. Well that is one thing that not a lot of, or any I hope, people could say.

Of course, Cameron and I were young enough to not really know any better. So we weren't banished to a dungeon or anything. But I was taught to "never show my panties to anyone ever again." And I can honestly say that I've never publicly flashed an audience ever again.